I started regular, vanilla modeling when I was in my junior year of college. It began with a gig that a lot of people wouldn’t have gone for, but which I totally adored: being photographed walking around Manhattan topless. For $25.00/hour. In February. In between shots, I put my coat back on, so I didn’t die of hypothermia, and New York State has a law saying that anywhere that a man can appear topless, a woman can as well, so I didn’t get arrested, either. What I did get were pretty cool photos, bragging rights and a whopping $75.00. For someone making minimum wage by shelving books in the school library, that was a big influx of cash. I started modeling whenever I could and worked my way up the ladder: I got better at it, worked with better photographers and developed a bit of a name for myself.
|The oldest surviving photo of me as a model. Hot, right?|
I won’t say it never occurred to me to do spanking modeling: it did, from the very start of my vanilla modeling work. The idea was, however, incredibly unappealing. I wasn’t part of the community yet in any real way: I was in a disciplinary spanking relationship with Serious_Face, and I had told my five closest friends about either my activities or my interest therein. On campus, it was the general opinion that I was probably kinky, but to me, saying something so general as that was far less personal than saying that I was into spanking. I still had trouble saying or hearing the word aloud sometimes. No photos existed of my bottom after a spanking, and it seemed like the most logical thing to keep it this way.
|This is the first spanking related photo of me ever taken. It’s from about five months ago, after a spanking given to me by my play partner, J.|
Fast forward to the present day: an awful lot has changed. My attitude towards spanking has become entirely different. Instead of feeling embarrassed or ashamed to be a spanko, even in likeminded company, I celebrate it whenever possible in a variety of ways. I’m proud of my bruises and my tears. What’s most important, perhaps, is that I feel that I *get* something out of sharing my experiences with other spankos. Posting spanking related photos and getting a positive response is a wonderful reaffirmation for me: this is the very core of who I am. This is something I’ve struggled with for nearly my entire life. People get it. They don’t judge me. They think I’m awesome for what I do.
When I had some difficulties in the vanilla modeling world, I started to think about spanking modeling as an option for the first time. I’d gotten nearly obsessed with showing off post-spanking photos and telling stories of awesome scenes to my friends. I was flashing likeminded strangers my bruises at munches. I felt good about every aspect of my spanko life, and I wanted to share it wherever it was appropriate. Plus, I needed money. Money always helps.
So, I scheduled my first three shoots: I shot with Assume The Position Studios on Monday, will be shooting with Lily Starr Spanking this weekend and will be shooting with a well known pay-site in about two weeks time (I’m not sure if I’m allowed to publicly announce where before the shoot, so I chose to err on the side of caution). A couple other production companies have contacted me about shooting with them, too, and I’m trying to hammer out details there.
I hate to make a shameless plug, but if you’re looking for lovely models who can take one hell of a spanking, you know how to get ahold of me. 😉
To everyone else, I hope you look forward to seeing more content from me in the future, because there’ll be plenty!